As of midnight tonight I will get to say goodbye to the 700's and 600's. Hello 599! It feels weird that he's already been gone that long but at the same time I feel like he has been gone for forever. I just miss him so much and some days I just want him home.
One of his really close friends and I have started hanging out a lot and we're becoming pretty close. Every time we're together Dallin always comes up in the conversation. I, like every MG, love talking about him. It makes me happy but sometimes where our conversations lead scare me. Most of the time they lead to talking about him coming home. We are the "wait and see what happens" couple and sometimes I hate the fact that I have to wait 2 years to know if he's in my future or not. His friend keeps telling me that I shouldn't be worried if it's awkward when he first comes home which I know is to be expected but he also keeps telling me that he's so worried about pleasing everyone that he doesn't know how to keep who is more important in his life straight and spending more time with them. That really scares me that when he comes home he's not going keep me his priority. I know he loves me but I'm scared he doesn't love me enough. There's so many other things his friend has been telling me that are worrying me. He is in no way trying to discourage me from waiting but I can't help but question whether or not I made the right decision in waiting for him. I'm so in love but yet so scared and I don't know what to do...
Taylor,
ReplyDeleteDon't be scared. Of course things might seem a little off as you've been apart for two years. Make the attempt to write as often as possible, that way once you are past the physical stage of actually being in each other's presence, things will be alright. If you are so in love, as you said, everything WILL work out. People tell me that "wait and see what happens" all the time. I just ignore them. I know what I am doing and why I am doing it. Just be confident. :)